PURPLE FLUID

i remember some one said in my lower classes that red + blue = purple.. so dont know what made me write this sort of poem in strikes of mid-night that was so unrealistic..! Now that i feel to b betrayed and being left out at the other corner of the world the liquid that flows in my nerves doesnt seem just to be blood.. it also intoxicates me as the time passes by and hence when i tried to know.. i had no other way than to cut my nerves and actually look for whats flowing inside.. n to my relief.. it wasn't blood.. it was something more flashy n more voracious.. like poison mixed with my hemoglobin... making that look like PURPLE... now i feel senseless.. and more exposed to bitter truths n facts.. i believe that i m still myself. i m still ŦĦĔ ĒжряēśŝĬőиĨşŦ.

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***** PURPLE FLUID *****

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I don’t want you to look at me

I am bleeding at every point

Trying to recover all those stabs

Pain overshadowing my mind.

They say, venom is blue

And blood that flows reflects red

In my nerves, I feel the run

Your breaths everywhere spread.

I am grown, I am fine

The steps of love were stupid

I cut down my nerves to see what’s inside

I smile, I see Purple Fluid.

DEATH OF DESIRES

now what you think when none of ur desires get fulfilled....? u tend to save some... n kill some !
with teary eyes u do that u never wanted to do in ur life... every turn of your life have some anguish and despair... and you look towards them with hungry hearts... but situations are so that u cry your lungs out.. n then brutally murder whatever you have thought earlier.. i m raged.. n have tried to put down what i felt..

have patience... n tolerate ME...

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***** DEATH OF DESIRES *****
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Like every human I had some dreams
Years after, now turned to screams
My reflection pointing me to say
The time devil catching you as prey.

Holding the patience in my heart below
Looking for a moment, a position to grow
Some efforts, some accomplishments
There is some fact you need to know.

With every breath and sense marking your presence
I have felt you, smelt your essence
I see my soul as ashes after fires
Still can’t explain, I suffered Death of Desires.